July 1 jive

Still floundering through the dark forest path of treatments. Only 10 more days of radiation therapy to go. Next week I will go through 96 hours of chemotherapy. They will do some IV's on Monday and then attach a pump that I have to carry around in a little pack. Hopefully, it will go better this time around.

When I was first diagnosed, it was like mortality was slapping me in the face. Those of you that know me well, may recall that I have been able to detach my mind from body quite easily. Some call it astral travelling, or transcendental experience. I have had this gift? since I was a young boy. I would hear songs in my head and run out to the tree row to see where they were coming from. Later, as I did more soul searching through church and study of metaphysics, I understood my life's plan. I understood why I was able to catch a bird on the wing and fly with it; leaving my body behind. Not something I have done on a regular basis over the years as I realized I am needed and well loved in the real world. Since my 20's, I have dedicated my life in service to family, USPS and community. However when I am on stage or just jamming, music takes me to that place quite handily.

When first came out of the anesthesia from the endoscopy on 4/14/09; it was not a surprise or shock as the Doc explained what he had seen (Of course they photograph it all in digital living color). My soul has no fear of dying but it hit me that my body needs my mind in a serious way now. My bodily shell was saying "Come back mind, I need you". Hence, it is important to conquer this for family and friends and that I will have to deal with whatever options are available to become healed.